Keto Day 57 – Down 9.4 Pounds – Observations

I’ve made it two months and I’m NOT gaining weight back! A superior success considering my last attempt at this. I even did some quick waist measurements on Friday, and I’m down! (Most are 1/2-3/4″). 

The good, the bad, the challenging:

  • Good: It has been far easier this time. I think because I cut out exercise. I think exercise was making me crave, and probably screwing with cortisol.
  • Good: I have found I like what I eat and even have switched to “lazy keto.” That doesn’t mean you eat more carbs, it means you don’t track strictly. I think once I switched to lazy, I was actually eating LESS. I’m still not losing at a lightning fast speed or anything, but it’s effortless now!
  • Bad: I actually am not sure if keto is to blame for this or my iron supplements, but I’m more constipated than ever. I was in a pretty good place pre-keto, going once a day. Now I probably go 3-4 days a week. 
  • Bad: I am not sure what I think about fake sweeteners. I feel like in the future many of these (except, ironically, aspartame, which has had tons of research) will be “what the hell were we thinking?” products. 
  • Challenging: The biggest challenge had been figuring out when I can workout again. I do miss it, and feel more stiff since I haven’t been. I’ve still been doing yard work and housework that keeps me moving. And I think I’ve done about three weight training workouts since the start of the year. But that’s it. I did a “regular” 20 minute workout today, and I’m going to keep to 20 minutes a few times a week. If that works, I’ll increase length or frequency. If 20 minutes 1-3 times a week is too much, I’ll back way off. 

My goal, far more than weight loss, is size loss. I’ve decided I’d love to be a size 12. And I’ll be pretty dang happy there. 

I’ve also found that I might have a specific food that challenges me (mostly pizza and fresh baked bread products) , but when I cheat, I often find the cheat foods disappointing. Sweet foods (even with fake sweeteners still in my life) feel really over-sweet, and I don’t miss those at all. But there are times I’d quit the whole thing to have a large pizza. I think I might plan a pizza cheat meal in the near future just to see how it tastes versus how it’s made up in my mind. 

Other than that, this has been easy! I do wish I were losing faster,but am happy to be losing at all! 


Keto – Day 47 – Zero Appetite – Sick or Fat Adapted? 

Today is actually the end of day 48, but I’m just now getting around to writing this, and keep delaying because I keep telling myself I’m about to have a stomach bug. Truth is, if a stomach bug is coming on, I usually don’t have a ton of warning, and eating things like cream-based dressings, avocados, cabbage, nuts and seeds, and other heavy, fatty or fiber-full things isn’t usually received well. 

That said, a stomach bug is moving through the office and only time will tell how I feel tomorrow, in three days, next week. This might all be a fluke. But, if it’s not, this is fantastic, and I can tell how people lose weight! 

Thursday I woke up and wasn’t hungry for breakfast. Had my coke zero with vanilla (not paid to say that, just a groupie), and felt fine. I did have a moment where I felt light headed and another where I felt a little gassy. But neither of those things is terribly weird. I was exhausted because I have slept less well this week, and Thursday is my early morning. Come lunch, I still had no appetite so I skipped lunch. On the way home from work I was hungry. So I had a salad with avocados, pumpkin seeds, a little lettuce, cheese, broccoli, pickles and homemade ranch. No, I’m not pregnant. :) This is apparently how I eat now. Felt fine, slept great. Woke up Friday, same thing, minus the light headedness (that, honestly I think came from being tired Thursday). No breakfast. Handful of pumpkin seeds for lunch, a quest bar for a snack (that honestly, I could have skipped) and another similar salad for dinner. 

My stomach rumbles a fair amount, but that’s par for the course eating low carb for me.

I was down 8 pounds total this morning. 

And if I eat one meal and one snack a day, weight should start coming off fast. I’m trying not to get excited in case it is a short lived bug. But I am close to starting week 8, and weeks 8-12 are generally fat adaptation zone.  No one said appetite would drop like this, but it’s been fantastic.

In related news, I think I hate most keto people. They’re such pretentious know it all snobs. Yes, I know, not all. But it’s hard to find good people. I’ve joined and left like six facebook groups. And realized I’m probably better going this alone, anyway. I don’t lose like the average low carber, and I’m looking for a sustainable way of eating, not shoving down fat I don’t want, starving myself to lower calories, working out ten hours a week, etc. I also don’t want to track macros super close the rest of my life. There’s not just a laid back group of people who are like, hey, let’s be cool and supportive. It’s such a contest. 

Right now, looking forward to week eight. And maybe getting to that elusive ten pound mark! And determining whether this appetite change is here to stay…. 

Keto – 35 days, 7 pounds, 1 modified workout

Thirty-five days into keto, and it’s been waaaaaaaaay easier than I expected. I’ve “cheated” three times in five weeks. All were planned. All were social events with food. I have two cheats planned over the next four weeks. I know most people go low-carb and are either all in for life, or in and out and don’t really like it. I actually like it, but want a bit of freedom for specific restaurants, when I go to dinner parties, and because I love trying new foods, and enjoying old favorites. I want to eat for health, but I’ll always get pleasure out of it. 

If I remember accurately, I lost about 2 1/2 pounds the first two or three days, water weight. Then yo-yoed, and got up to about five not too long after my period, which I think was in week three. I stayed at five for two weeks. Even hit upticks. Had one random day I was at -6.2, but popped right back up to closer to 4. The first time I did keto, this is what happened. I got stuck right before five, then started creeping back to zero.

This week, I hit -6.4. Then the next day -7. And today, still -7. I feel like this is working for me! I’m losing less than 1/2 pound per week, but it’s a loss!

And today I did my first workout. I used the Metabolic a Effect adrenal fatigue improvement approach to working out as hard as you can for up to 1 minute, then rest until your heart rate comes back to resting. Then go again, for  no longer than 20 minutes, I only got in six intervals. The theory is after so long, you won’t be able to recover. And the last 5+ minutes of the workout were waiting to recover. So six intervals in fifteen minutes isn’t too bad. Plus, I feel muscle fatigue already! And am hopeful I won’t be dead tired tomorrow. 

Other than that, I actually love the diet. I’ve enjoyed eating avocados almost every single day. I’ve eaten hot wings, and put lots of butter on broccoli and cauliflower. I’ve been eating nuts and seeds for minerals. Lots of things feel like treats. I don’t let myself get terribly hungry. And I’m drinking tons of water. 

Overall, my energy seems to come in waves. I’d say more good than bad, and I think the ratio is increasing. My mental focus is great. My anxiety has drastically decreased (but not eliminated), and the bit of mild depression I sometimes feel has been mostly gone. I’m still waiting for an exciting clothes size jump. But I’ve been really good with house work. Although, it feels like today hasn’t been a great example. Isn’t that the way? 

Anyway, right now I love it and it seems to be working (albeit slowly) for me. I’ll keep updating. Hopefully great things continue to happen! 

28 Days Low-Carb/Keto

iLast time I did low-carb, I also crossed the 28 day mark. And I was doing OK, but wasn’t feeling confident in the path. I believe by this point, I’d gained back the few pounds of water weight I dropped in the first week (never lost additional weight), and I was hungry, tired, and stressed.

The only difference this time? Well, first, I’ve been doing several runs at fasting in the meantime. Short intermittent daily fasts, not eating from dinner until lunch the next day. 24-48 hour mini-fasts. And one longer (I believe 12 days) fast. I think these fasts helped shift me and my food mindset, and as a whole, helped me drop about 10-12 pounds. First weight I’ve lost in 5+ years. But, man, what a grind. Going on and off of fasts is tough (except dinner to lunch wasn’t too bad for me). You’re always in the pain of starting a fast. But longer fasts caused my hair to thin. The science behind fasting is to help fix insulin issues. So once I’d done this fasting show for about six months, I was ready to do low carb again. 

This time, without exercise, the other thing different from my first attempt.

I’d noticed others eating low carb weren’t exercising and were seeing good results. After some research, many recommend doing little to no exercise until you’re “fat adapted” which, on average, takes 1-4 months. At that point, start weight lifting. 

And I think going into this NOT exercising made me more diligent on the food. I planned well. I had time to pay attention to how I felt. I could go to bed earlier. And, I had more time for housework, which has made the entire journey so satisfying. I’ve never been more organized! 

My focus at work has also been excellent, and I’m very productive, while feeling positive and relaxed. My anxiety has taken a huge dip, which is so fantastic. 

I did have one day of total meltdown, and with the help of Gary Taubes and some self-reflecting I’ve also been better at, didn’t give up. My weight loss is slow for low-carb, but average for weight loss with other diets. And hearing some of Gary’s research has really set the course for me. Specifically, this YouTube video:

He talks about the time it takes for your insulin to heal and when it does, and it will, you’ll start to drop fat. You can eat more and still lose, and because you’re not eating carbs, you’re more satisfied. 

I had some urges to exercise this weekend, but instead got a huge chunk of yard work done on an unexpectedly warm day. I also drank alcohol Saturday, and on a normal Sunday, would have ben horribly hungover. But surprisingly wasn’t. I did the yard work, and some other housework, and came out feeling satisfied with my weekend! How strange.

So where am I weight loss wise? Well, I lost about 2 1/2-3 lbs quickly, which was water weight. I’m sitting right at 5 lbs down, total. Maybe closer to six on a great day, but I’m definitely down 5. So, 2-2 1/2 pounds the first month. I’ll take it! And I’ll stop comparing myself to others. And even in the low-carb/keto world, people can’t let go some of the unhealthy diet approaches – eat less than 1200 calories, chug water to feel full, exercise more to make a deficit. I’m not following the leads of those people. 

I will continue to eat less carbs (less than 20g net per day), I won’t get caught up in protein, fat, or specific types of foods until I stall for more than a month, I will add in strength training when I have consistent hugh energy, I will keep prioritizing sleep, I will keep planning a varied menu, I will keep foods as simple as possible, and I will be pleased with ANY loss, no matter how slow. I WILL NOT become a braggy, snobby weight loss person. I will remember how hard it was to find a place where I lose, and if it works, keep it up! 

Emotions Of Weight Loss Attempts

Weight loss is emotional. No, scratch that, attempting and struggling with weight loss is emotional. I hate every minute of feeling like a failure. I hate comparing myself to others even when I know I shouldn’t. I hate not knowing the right way. But you know what I hate the most? The dismissiveness of everyone around me when I’m struggling. They tell me to simply eat less. Eat less? Why would I be eating more than I need to? Why? I want to lose weight, and your advice is to eat less. Thanks. Super helpful. 

I hate trying to lose weight because I suck so much at it. Fifteen years ago, weight loss was super easy. I just watched what I ate, but I never starved, and it worked out a few days a week. Being in my twenties was fantastic. 

Now, I struggle with overwhelming fatigue if I workout. I’m hungry when I try to cut back on food. And the weight doesn’t come off. Compound that with a very predatory industry, and the condescension of people who lose easily? This is why I decide being fat ain’t all bad. 

I’m emotional right now. But not quitting. I’m exhausted with people suggesting I starve, because I won’t. I’ve been through this enough times to know that’s not sustainable. I’m annoyed with it not coming easy like it does for the assholes who judge, because they will truly never know. They can eat their candy and vending machine food and boxed pasta dishes and keep thinking I’m lazy. I know I’m not. Somehow that’s not enough. But it’s all I have. 

New Year: Low-Carb, No Exercise, Respect the Food Allergies

I have no idea why I never stumbled on this approach before. I feel like it’s been staring me in the face since this fatigue stuff started. But, somehow, I never saw it. I wonder what other things I’m doing to myself that’s counter to my goals, but feels like I HAVE to keep doing. Let’s not go there. We don’t have that kind of time or introspection.

I’ve been struggling to lose weight for the past five or six years. I mean, it’s been a struggle since college, but usually all I had to do was eat less and exercise more. And boom, weight loss. And eating less never meant starving. I still ate most of the things I liked, just in smaller portions, less often, etc. It did take some work and focus, I had to be intentional. But it was truly never that hard. I usually fell off the wagon because it always feels “cool” to eat whatever I want. That’s how they portray “cool girls” on TV shows and in movies. They don’t worry about diets or counting calories. And are effortlessly thin. I know, I know, I know. I’m not effortlessly thin. And I also know most actresses aren’t either. SO WHY DOES HOLLYWOOD DO THAT TO US? Stop pretending there’s some sort of liberation in binge eating shitty food. It’s unhealthy. And not cool. Or cute. Or funny. If a fat lady did that it would be “so disgusting.” So. Just. Stop.

Off soapbox.

Anyway, the point is, I could go in out of more strict eating. Usually exercising fairly consistently along the way. I have always liked being active, strong, flexible, having endurance. But as the fatigue creeped up, I found myself struggling to keep up my former pace. And then I’d find myself heavier, and again, cutting back more on exercise. I’d still workout most weeks. On good weeks, 3ish times. On bad weeks, I’d normally still at least START a few workouts, usually pushing through even when my body would cry mercy.

And you know what? It didn’t help. More

Post-Fast – Retained Results, New Exercise and Diet

I lost a solid six to eight pounds after my fast. I was very pleased with that. It was tough at first thinking of it like I gained back twelve to fourteen pounds, but those pounds weren’t ever mine to have lost. Overall, the fast was hard, but I’m glad I did it. If I did it again, I’d probably do a bunch of shorter timeframe, more frequent fasts than another 1-2 week one. Maybe 1-3 day fasts.

Right now I’m mostly just doing intermittent fasting where I skip breakfast a few days a week, and I try to be honest with myself with dinner – if I’m not hungry, don’t eat. I’m trying to eat less bread and pasta as a general approach, and more salads with lots of fats, moderate protein, and carbs only coming from the veggies. But I am also occasionally having pizza. Or Mexican food. Or any other food I REALLY want. But I’m trying to have a realistic, healthy approach, and not watching diet a lot more than that. So far weight’s holding steady, and I’m pleased with that.

I had been doing a few workout videos a week and some heavy deadlifts. I am a big fan of Metabolic Effect. I’ve bought a few programs in the past, read most of Jade’s articles, and used one of his techniques in my battle against adrenal fatigue. It’s still one I use today. I monitor my heart rate during a workout, and if it doesn’t return to normal within a few minutes of resting, I call it a day for workouts. He seems to have several approaches you can employ, and I do believe there are many ways to healthy, but I decided to give his Metabolic Prime workout a shot. More

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